Sissy's Pastime

I took this picture when I board in Cebu Pacific Airlines domestic flight bound to Davao City. Its still fresh from my memory even though its been almost three months just pass. My mind is blank and i just go with the flow, I can’t comprehend what I feel, It seems that the time is so slow, I didn’t look around me, when I find my set, settle my things i just sit there grab the magazine in front of me I open it in the center page and this what I saw, that time i just smile and I feel dismay. I didn’t want to end this way what I started in that country, I remember the broken plans, the mistake and the trust that is being shattered. That picture is where I live together with my closest friends its Called “ Salmiya Kuwait”

Nov. 8, 2016, is my flight going back to the Philippines. I ended my one year contract to my company because I was not happy anymore.
I’ve been working for five years and 2 mos. in Kuwait as a server or waitress for 4 years and 1 year and 2 mos. As a sales associate.
My life there is not what I visualize when I 1st came to that country, my plans were not fulfilled even if I tried, my earnings wasn’t enough because I only have less salary, I wasn’t able to save up and even give fully support to my family financially.
I experience culture shock and I was embracing the job that I have which I find hard to have in my own country. I feel so independent because I am by myself and I can decide on my own.
My parents didn’t demand anything, I gave in my own free will in any amount that I want to share.
I am happy when I arrived and started to work in Kuwait because I was jobless in the Philippines for over 2 years.
What I have in mind at that time is to work for only 2 years and save up so that I can pursue my application for the Philippine National Police but unfortunately I wasn’t able to stick with that plan when I finish my first 2 years,
I wasn’t able to save because I enjoyed spending every day-off and I have a small salary to begin with. I decided to stay another two years even though deep inside me something is telling me that I shouldn’t extend my contract, but I didn’t listen because there is that fear of starting over again, I fear that I will experience again being jobless and feel useless to my family specially to my parents.
I disregard that voice within me. I then have my 1st vacation which it adds to my fear of going back in my own country.
My vacation money wasn’t enough that makes me decide more that maybe I should plan to stay a bit longer working in Kuwait.
I was thinking maybe my future is there, maybe I will be successful there. So I go back after my vacation try to continue my life, I tried to save but I am starting to feel that there is something wrong but still I didn’t mind it. I finish my 4 years contract from my previous company and apply locally, I get hired directly and have a minimum offer and it’s not bad for a 1st timer who is hired locally, the work is easy and relax very far from my previous work.
But I get bored and unhappy most of the time, and my expenses is very tight I will pay my own transportation, house, and food. But still I go on, I budget my salary, I spend less in my want and more on my needs like food, I add of what I send to my family.
I fell I started over again, I am saving because I am planning to have my second vacation, a month before my vacation that is when the adversity that comes in my life happens. It’s a big realization that hits me so hard that regrets sink in in my heart and mind, I shouldn’t stay there for that long, I should just follow that voice, and I should just face my fear and take the risk. And I decide to book a ticket and go home. I didn’t want to think what will happen.
If this is what God needs me to experience and overcome I will oblige him because I know that this is with a reasons and purpose. It is partly my mistake because I didn’t listen to his voice in the 1st place. I didn’t regret my decision even though I still feel lost and I am now jobless for 2 mos. But I feel that God is guiding me to the right direction, right people and right place. It’s never too late in Gods timing. I am now looking forward for a new journey and new life.

Most of the time I choose to stick with my first option because it is easier and I don’t have to open multiple site especially if you connection is very slow. Then, one of my friend advice me to widen my horizon and select the best site that offer the best answer to your research. There are online store out there that only cater small amount of information so you are still thirsty for more. And even ordering your books, clothes and electric guitar with minimal choices is not smart. We like to wear comfortable and nice clothes and durable music instruments the only choice is to visit the site that gives best selection at musicians friend where you can explore your choices and buy the best there is.

Watching those houses that you pass by in a subdivision or houses that are posted online bring out the inner jealousy in your bones. No job and can’t afford to buy a home for yourself id hard. however, if you can own a room just a little space inside, it would be heaver. All you need to focus is make space for your hobby like reading books and putting some life on your small space. For the last couple of months since I got a room of my own. I have been thinking of doing something to accommodate my other belongings. Watching online crafty idea help me. I want to display my books so I plan to create a shelf to it but I don’t have budget yet for nice shelves so using used material is a must.

So here it is, my new but still need to improve bookshelves. I ask my sister who also love books to send me her other books because buying new books is somewhat expensive on me. I still need to find other materials though to make these bookshelves awesome.

And here is the paper photo frame. I don’t have space to put my photos so I just bought these and paste it on the wall. Same as the wall decoration. I am planning to paint the wall but it would be a big work considering my room only have small space.

So, if you want to be creative and explore the small space in your room. Watch videos online and create your own. Next stop, closet space.

Since we are in the 21st century, life is more easy and convenient. When your too tired to cook you just call and make a food delivery. When you want to pay your bills, you can use your phone (with internet connection) to pay for all your bills or you can even send money to your family in far away country just a click of you phone or laptops. An specific site for an specific purpose just like if you want to order your music instrument and accessories,
guitar centers are the best there is. A broken strings, tuning machine, or a nut and even you favorite acoustic guitar.

These kind of centers can help you ease you life especially if your too busy for work and family. Just seating inside your lovely house you can enjoy shopping.